Restricted relations

It’s been the month of December when cold winds starts striking my face. I was been in utterly dejection and was facing a tough time. For me the world was comprises of only two things troubles and loneliness. I have made my mind to live in this manner for the rest of my life and hence now I was planning to fix my financial worries. Before I actually can implement the plans I met someone who completely changes my goals. No, I haven’t found my soul mate or a good friend. I just find my old diary.

It was recalling 2010, and as I was having the habit to pen down my thoughts on the dairy, I used to have it. Though I never read my previous diaries but don’t know why I started reading it. After reading 20 or 30 pages, I realized that I was doing a strange thing i.e. restricting the relationship. As I was constantly trying to grab the attention of my near and dears, many times I felt dejected and this habit of mine is actually causing pain.

Hence, I started restricting myself from expressing emotions which even put me out of their eyes. Now, I am the the one who have a paper family with few friends and broken heart. Is it because I restricted the relationship? I decide to find out the answer and started process. I was clueless and hence I wasn’t afraid of getting lost. After spending few nights in thinking about the topic and reading some heavy psychological works, I finally come to conclude that I do not restrict relationships; I restrict myself from the relationship.

Just to avoid the pain, most of us do it and this practice actually restraining us from being satisfied. We forget that we are with someone just because we want to be with them. It is not necessary that others will also feel the same. All we can do is to create the limits in which they feel comfortable. Love and affection is not the thing which you expects in return, and in fact if you are expecting it back then you are putting yourself in misery. My only suggestion to all the readers is please Love without expecting it back and if you are finding it hard to do so then try to find happiness lies in the eyes of someone special.

Do not restrict the relations else will end soon and you will only get tears in your eyes.